I woke up not wanting to do anything, I didn’t have the willpower. In the past this was one of the major things that stopped me from achieving my goals. But now that I’ve put my goals into a realistic routine, it is easier to force myself to just do what I need to do. It doesn’t sap my willpower. Developing habits and maintaining a routine are extremely related concepts, and a habit/routine is what allows you to save your daily limit of willpower for other things. For example, I love to think a lot about what I want to eat at a restaurant ;P
Speaking of putting my goals into a realistic routine…my routine is based off of what I would do if I went back in time to when I was born with the knowledge I have now. I am obsessive with fantasizing about that, so I figured that I would copy my plans in that fantasy, and just do them now. This one trick has improved my life and my progress towards my goals by leaps and bounds. Maybe people have these kinds of fantasies for productive reasons such as this…food for thought.
I’m getting more and more ready to reenter the workforce. I’ve determined I have all the coping skills, skills, perspectives, contingency plans, plans, and emotional preparedness to start looking for unpaid internships. I will start with that because I want to see if I like a company before moving forward. All I have left is to just wait and prove to myself that these new skills of mine can persist for some time. I’m only going to be looking for office jobs, because I do much better with those. I’m not afraid of requesting my reasonable accommodations up front, because that will weed out toxic employers who don’t want mentally ill people, and attract nurturing employers like what I had in the past.